Since I've found out we're having a little one, I've been overwhelmed. I don't know if I can't speak for Jordon or not, but I'm sure I can when I say that I was flooded with thoughts of "is this really the right time?" "Can we really do this?" "What will I do about my job?" The list of questions I had goes on and on. The only answer that I've found and the only answer that's made me feel certain that we'll be okay is from Jeremiah 29. (One of my favorite passages...)
"'For I know the plans I have for you,' says the Lord. 'They are plans to prosper you and not harm you, to give you hope and a future.'" (verse 11)
I had prayed that God would bless us with a little one in His own time and knew He'd only do this when He knew we were ready. I guess I didn't realize that we were apparently ready. I sure didn't/don't feel ready, but then again what if everyone waited to get married or have children when they felt ready. In this short few weeks, I've come to understand that sometimes God does things to help you understand who you are and to make you learn to trust Him completely.
Do I worry about the next 7 months and beyond? What parent doesn't. I worry about my job and being able to find something on day shift so that I can be at home with my family at night (like a "normal" person). I've prayed for the past few weeks that God will lead me to wherever He sees that I need to be. I just have to be patient and keep praying and listening for direction.
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